Here's what I love: compliments and dreams come true.
Here's what I hate: dental procedures and bad news.
On Monday at 8AM I was in the chair at my dentist’s
office. I had been having some
pain in my tooth and was suspicious of a cavity. They did x-rays and found what could be the problem: there
was a little cavity way, way down underneath an old filling. That’s not the best news.
So, I proceeded to have to hold my mouth open wide for the
next 45 minutes while the dentist and his assistant stuck me with needles to
numb me and then drilled down, down, down to do the filling.
At one point during the procedure, the dental assistant
asked me how old my kids were.
“Nine and shix” I managed to get the answer out of my numb,
cotton filled mouth.
She looked shocked.
“You have a nine year old!? Wow, you must have been young when you had
that baby! You look too young to have a daughter that age.”
Then the Dentist himself chimed in. “Yeah, you look like you are still in
college.”
Well, THAT is pushing it. But, of course I felt all puffed up by their
compliments. That was smart on
their part. Instead of sitting
there feeling annoyed at the length of time they had to be drilling, I was
feeling all pretty and young.
“Shanks” I say with the lovely dental tools hanging out of
my mouth.
Then the drilling began again.
The rest of my day was spent trying to function with one
whole side of my face completely numb.
I got a smoothie for lunch and the first sip came right back out of my
mouth on the numb side. Same thing
with the bread I attempted to eat at lunch time—it popped right out of my
mouth. Luckily, I was at home
alone, so no one saw me.
The numbness was so annoying, but is pain better?
Ultimately, having the cavity filled will be good, even
though it was annoying and painful to have it done.
Life is full of both the good and the bad.
Over the last several weeks, I’ve been playing phone tag
with my childhood BFF. I was
trying to tell her some news I had received. Back and forth we went missing each other’s calls.
Finally, to prevent her from thinking I
was pregnant
or moving
or dying,
I told her on a voicemail of all things: “Well, I’ll go ahead and tell you,” I began chatting after
the beep. “My children’s book is going to be published! Sooo, that’s my
news. I just wanted you to know so
that you could quit wondering. Thank you for your input on the manuscript. Hope to catch up with you soon. Love ya! Bye…”
I did not like sharing that fun news on voicemail.
Later that night, I saw a text from her congratulating me
and saying that she had guessed/hoped that was my news. Then, she texted that she had news too!
Recommence game of phone tag.
Today, I finally got to speak to her and hear her
voice! What was her news? Her eldest son has been diagnosed with
high-functioning autism. My heart
sank. My mind raced. She sounded upbeat. I knew that “high-functioning” had to be
a good thing. She said that she
was thankful to have a diagnosis because of the challenges that they had been
facing with him. She asked me to
pray that she (a free spirit through and through) would become a bit more
organized and structured since that helped her son cope with things. Yes, I will pray.
My news: a dream of mine is coming true.
Her news: all dreams for her son have to change.
But, that’s how life is, right? The good and the bad.
The ups and the downs. The
compliments and the dental drills.
Some dreams come true and some don’t.
That’s life after the fall. There’s a time for each of these things.
Some days we jump and skip and clap our hands with sheer joy
in that day’s lot. We close our
eyes and sigh with disbelief at the blessings surrounding us in that moment.
Other
days we hurt with physical pain or we ache with emotional struggles too immense
to for us to handle. We sigh with
disbelief at the grief closing in on us in that moment.
What do we do with this horrible, crazy, wonderful mixture
called life swirling all around us and inside of us?
Lean on the One who never changes. Steady as a rock and even more
reliable. Joy in Him never fades. His comfort is everlasting love, which
covers us in the midst of all kinds of pain and heartache.
There are two songs which speak to this mystery of God's presence in the midst of hardship and heartache. I encourage you to look carefully at the lyrics.
When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
God promises He will never leave us or forsake us.
Do you feel held in the midst of whatever you are going through?
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